I am so terribly behind in my Blog writing. I have been putting all of my brilliant ideas down so I can catch up. I am going to have to do these a little out-of-order since I need to deal with some issues at hand.
First of all, does Faithfulness exist? Are the respect “lines” between friends different from the “lines” between acquaintances? I feel like I am in a lose / lose situation here. As a resident of a small town there are slim pickings to begin with. As for me personally, right now, I am not looking for a father for my kids or someone to hold my hand. I am perfectly fine with how things are.
I do find all of the double standards amusing though. Single guys can date whomever, talk to whomever, hang out with whomever. Then I come into town, not to steal anyones man or cause drama, but to just co-exist in this beautiful area. I make my own opinions, refusing to hear the history of each resident and why I should “stay away”. I ignore warnings that “That is ____’s ex boyfriend and I won’t talk with you (but sure as heck will talk ABOUT you) if you go party after hours with him.” Seriously People?!?!
I find myself always treating people how I want to be treated. It really isn’t that difficult. I am NOT about to tie a bunch of imaginary chains around my actions because of things that happened before I even moved here. I am not going to play the “games”. I am me. That’s all I got. I try to be kind and respectful to most and I am very generous.
I’m noticing my generosity is always questioned as “What’s in it for her?” “What does she want?” “What is she trying to get out of it?”. I can assure you, there are NO strings attached to my persona; again I am just trying to co-exist. I accept everyone else flaws and all … as they are, knowing that’s all they can be.
Faithfulness: “1. Adhering firmly and devotedly, as to a person, cause, or idea; loyal.2. Engaging in sex only with one’s spouse or only with one’s partner in a sexual relationship.3. Having or full of faith.4. Worthy of trust or belief; reliable.5. Consistent with truth or actuality: a faithful reproduction of the portrait.”
One Man has been faithful to me while in a relationship. He is an Angel now. It really isn’t that difficult. If you can’t stay faithful than don’t commit, hold onto, or waste anyone else’s life. Make sure your intentions are known, out of respect. If someone isn’t looking for a relationship, it doesn’t mean they are bad. I’m not looking. My life isn’t exactly something someone can just jump right into. It’s very restrictive and I wouldn’t want my baggage to tie anyone down. I love my life. Mother of two Amazing kiddos. I have no expectations of anyone else coming into it though.
Even though I am not looking for anything serious, I still like to Mingle and have conversation and need a break from my reality. We all need our outlets to just “be”. Without being judged or ridiculed. Step back and think”Hey I have never lived a day of their life and cannot even imagine where they are at, but it’s good to see them getting a break”. We ALL deserve a break. No matter how perfect things appear, we all have our shit.
I am begging all of you to embrace life. “It is what it is” as my Friend Jesse always says! http://www.itiswhatitisman.com/ Check him out for awesome positive perspectives~!
Be kind to each other,