I know about and have personally read a ton of articles about body image. I am a very healthy individual. I find the need to express some frustrations I am having today. As I stated before I have made lifestyle changes the past 6 weeks. I am gaining weight, which I can only assume is from gaining muscle. I do NOT fit into any of my pants from last winter yet refuse to buy new “fat clothes”. Yesterday I went to the local dime store and bought a $5 pair of sweatpants. These are what I will be wearing in this colder weather now until I can fit into my old jeans.
I can zip up my jeans but I look terrible! I am so terribly discouraged. I feel like I am starving myself, which I am not, I eat all of the time, but I am running out of things I want to eat. Even if someone offered me a plateful of carbs I would turn them down. I feel like I am hungry, but not for anything specifically. I now have a terrible relationship with food. It feels like a break-up. Where I still have to see the person everyday… (eat) and yet all they do is piss me off. I suppose like any addiction would feel. I’m still hiking but it’s not fun anymore. 😦
Maybe this is just a crappy whining day for me. BLAH!
It’s my truth that I am beautiful inside and that makes me beautiful outside.