Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I ended a 7 year “Way of life” that I will miss tremendously, but it is time for something new. I crave something that I control without outside interference. A way to make my mark on the world without the “ish” of others hovering overhead. Something I can just put out into the cosmic void & trust God will bring to those who need it.
I’ve been contemplating this change since 2018 – but got caught up in the “Don’t be weak!” “Do you hear what they are saying?!?” – and I focused on the good. There really was so much good.
Then for a while, we NEEDED that way of life. & it supported us and gave us a quality of life we wouldn’t have gotten to without it.
But then, while I was in the woods & on the beautiful shores of Lake Michigan for 40 days and 40 nights (coincidence?), I felt at peace. It’s like the saying “when you die, the world will miss you as much as removing your hand from a bucket of water. It just fills the space and keeps being a bucket of water.” I feel like I made a difference. It’s just time to find my way … a different way.
A mentor of mine said, “I don’t have space for that” when we were talking about life stuff. It made me look at life in a whole NEW way. I get to control what & who I fill my space with. This is MY life and the only one I’ve got so I am determined to evaluate what is in my space. Is it good? Does it serve me? Does it bring me JOY? Is it positive? Will it help me grow?
Today is Day 1 of the rest of my life. Let’s see what happens.