I am reading Kyle Cease’s book “The Illusion of Money” with my husband and it says “Your relationship with money is just a mirror to your relationship with yourself.”
In all honesty, this book isn’t really about Money, but more about the restrictions we place on ourselves to prevent us from being abundant in any form.
I start unpacking all the beliefs and reasons I have “decided” are why I am not as abundant as I would like to be.
- Money is only for educated people.
- Money is something to covet.
- Money determines success.
- Money doesn’t grow on trees.
Even as I type these now I see how ridiculous it all is! Then I start digging into WHY I think these things. SHOCKING NEWS AHEAD: it all stems from my two trauma issues I have been writing about this whole time!
I have been letting their opinions of my worthiness control my relationship with money. I didn’t do what I was “supposed” to do in life, so I will never be as financially abundant as they are.
***But, when it comes to “me-being-me unapologetically” in ANY other situation, I love myself whole-heartedly, unconditionally, and with pride. ~ While wearing a ginormous sparkling crown, and excessive amounts of body glitter.
I just keep getting tripped up on the conditional terms of the trauma situations.
I legit hear those people saying in my head: “There isn’t enough money or abundance in the world for people like you.”
Hear. Me. Now.
NOBODY gets to decide if I am worthy enough to be financially abundant or a good enough leader or smart enough or valuable enough EXCEPT ME!!!
I AM TAKING MY POWER BACK.
Fun Fact: I don’t eat fish or seafood. I am a Pisces and don’t eat my own kind 😉 So I have decided that when someone projects their opinion of my worthiness on me, or I am haunted by the lies I’ve let my brain repeat to me ~ I am just going to think of it as being offered fish. “No, Thank you. That’s not for me.”
They can eat as much as they want and share with whomever they want, but for me, it’s just fish and I can get by just fine without it. I’m not in a hateful place, quite the opposite actually. Sitting in my love of not eating fish. I am completely removing the power control from them and turning their beliefs into stinky fish.
It is this simple and ridiculous. Does it sting when people don’t like you? Sure, but it also clears a path for the universe to bring you to your Non-Fish eating tribe. Am I judging people who eat fish? Heck no! Not everyone likes everything and I am sure they might cringe at my hummus and veggie platter.
We get to decide our worth. YOU get to decide YOUR worth. You get to decide your success level! As an Autism Momma, small wins are BIG WINS. Why would I EVER let anyone diminish the hard work my kids do? Sometimes, just getting out of bed is a HUGE win for my friends with depression. You bet your bottom I will be the loudest cheerleader for them!
There are literally NO LIMITS to your capabilities if you can just get out of your own way. Screw what anyone else ever led you to believe. They were just offering you stinky fish!
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